Friday, April 17, 2015


I didn't got out tonight.
I didn't see anyone.

And I didn't use my computer for anything other than a music source.

I used this quiet evening at home to finally finish my book shelves project:

So. This is BookShelf #1.
Top three shelves are all DVD's. The ones I think I'll keep. I am giving away a couple dozen, and may end up culling more.

(They are stacked two rows deep by the way. The box sets are behind the single cases.)
Now that Netflix is available to me - I can see this collection is unnecessary.

The lower two shelves are a few of my photo albums. They're the ones we found at the bottom of various packed boxes last month when we were looking for picks of my dad.

Yes, I will probably re-shuffle that bottom shelf so that the colours go from light to dark. Because I am just that anal.

Actually, I'm going to go do that right now. Hang on a sec.


K. I'm back.

It's done. Rest easy.

Next. Bookshelf #2:

This cabinet is in my 'office' area... the top three shelves are books I'll need for book club, and/or want to read/refer to in the next year.

Behind the doors, on the two lower shelves, are craft supplies, set out in wicker trays. If I want to work on something, I just need to pull out a tray. I'm a little glad I could find a place for them.

Bookshelf #3:

Is in my bedroom:

Working from the bottom up; a basket of coil bound notebooks.
I need to go through these. I remember destroying all my journals from 1983 - 2007, so these must have come later. Can't imagine there's anything too interesting in them - but you never know.

I should deal with them before anyone tries to peek at my personal thoughts. I am such a private person (obvs) that it would be horrific if anyone knew what my dreams or Great Sadnesses are. (Pfft. Writes she, on her blog.)

The second to bottom shelf has three baskets with assorted camera gear in it. I cleaned these out tonight and look what I found:

(If you've ever seen me with my camera you'll know I never have a lens cap on. (Adam Schellenberg, this is probably making you feel ill.)

So. Many. Lens Caps. A treasure chest of camera accessories. Right in those baskets. Who knew?

The third shelf has my cameras and newly capped lenses on it. (My go to camera is in my hand taking the pic, so it's not on the shelf. You'll just have to imagine.)

Next shelf up has CD's on it. I will sort through these at a later date to determine if I really need them. I mean, once you've downloaded them onto your computer, you don't really need them anymore, amIright?

But what if your computer crashes? Or gets stolen. (Both of these catastrophes has happened to me. I am living proof of Turrible Things Happening To Good(ish) People.)

Anyway, I'll go through those CD's in a month or so. And beside those CD's are a stack of books that I need to return to someone. Or lend to someone. Or something. They won't be there forever.

Top shelf? Books. Books that I'm most going to read soon-ish. Maybe. We'll see. (Mostly they are books that I just couldn't box up yet. Maybe at the end of the summer, but not yet.)

The addition of the bookshelf in my office, caused things in there to shift abit. Want to see? Yes you do. You're still reading, so you're finding this all very riveting.

Outside that window? Is a 1/2 concrete wall. So this is a prettier view. Plus the neighbours are over there. Just beyond that concrete wall. So this is for added privacy in case I ever feel the need to blog in the nude. It hasn't happened yet, but menopause is coming so I'm preparing for it.

And this is where the magic happens:


While I was sorting through boxes and bags, I found these, the movies I watched over and over again with my dad:

Good memories. But not too anxious to watch any of them again any time soon.

Three things I'm thankful for:

1. This. From Danica, Last year. I have kept it alive. Despite forgetting to water it for a few months.

2. Thankful for space to put things.

3. Thankful for Thursdays,


Thursday, April 16, 2015

Three Thingys


Three Things I'm Thankful For:

1. Two more trips into Vancouver - Monday night, to pick Clint up. Tuesday night to take him home. Thankful that Maxine felt like joining me. We may have wandered around for a few hours before coming back to the valley...

We stopped in here. For a late supper. Sooooooooo good.

2. Thankful for time. And the way it heals. I was out with a friend tonight, one who is in the beginning stages of getting divorced. Oh the pain. Oh the tears. So thankful that those dark days are waaaaaaaaaaaay behind me.

3. Thankful for the invention of PVR's.


Tuesday, April 14, 2015

All Ovah da Place.

So I was doing good. Until, like 10 pm on Tuesday, and pffffft. I just started to cry. All because of that Dove ad on beauty.


When I blogged about that ad, I was just sobbing my little heart out. It was pathetic. Haha. Feeling all sorry for myself because the only man who thought I was beautiful had just died.

And I know the purpose of that ad campaign is not about others making you feel beautiful. It's about choosing to feel beautiful. All on your own. Regardless of what the men (or friends) in your life may or may not say.

But I chose to remember how he made me feel.
And I felt sad that he's gone.

Which, honestly, came out of no where. But I rode that wave in all it's glorious angst.

And then resolved that I had to get my shit together.

On Wednesday, Terry and I went into Vancouver for a walk n talk along the seawall. And to check Vancouver's latest art installation:

She hadn't seen last year's colourful art piece, so we walked over there:

We watched the sun set, the rowers row, the buildings light up, then stopped at the Tap n Barrel to sit on the patio and have a late supper. I didn't cry once.

It? Was a magical evening. Felt like we'd gone on a vacation.

On Thursday, I met Jenn at Ikea to browse and shop and day dream and talk and then with dozens of new candles in my truck, I drove into Vancouver to pick up Clint.

We got home at midnight because traffic was down to ONE LANE on the Port Mann. Clint was a frustrated passenger and his moaning may have caused me to get quiet. And maybe a little bit sad in my soul. I guess I'm not a fan of whining men. I just don't know what do about it. Anyway, we got back to my mom's place, I hopped out and he drove back into Vancouver with my truck because he needed it for a few shoots.

My mom drove me to and picked me up from work on Friday, which is a little bit like maid service/having a princess lifestyle - which was lovely. And then I borrowed her car to meet Kim in Coquitlam to see The Woman in Gold.

Which is about Nazi's, Jewish people, Austria, WW2 and works of art.

And while my dad was not Jewish (he was Mennonite) and not from Austria (he was from the Ukraine/Russia), WW2 and the Nazi's were very much a part of his young life. 

I totally enjoyed the movie, and it reminded me to not forget my dad and grandma's stories. They are my story too. 

On Saturday, Val and I (and Drew and Jordan) attended the last regular season Canuck's game. And it was so, so, so fun. Fan Appreciation Night. Celebrate GINO night. And WE WON in overtime. And we were all just so happy and enthusiastic to be there. (Thanks, Mark, for the tickets.)

And Sunday? Well Sunday was just all kinds of pure awesome sauce. 

Maxine, Christine, Danica and I went to the Chris Tomlin concert. And ohmyohmyohmyohmy it was so good. JUST what my heart needed. 

Maxine and I have done many Creationfests together, so worshipping beside her just felt right. And this was Danica and my third Chris Tomlin concert and let me tell you something. My heart was just so happy that I could share this with her again. It was her mom's first concert in forever, so that's always exciting - experiencing something with a newbie. 

If you ever get a chance to see Chris Tomlin, even if you aren't sure about his latest album - GO. He knows what he's doing. AMaZING. 

When asked what his most special recording is, he mentioned this song:

It gives me goosebumps. 

And today? I yawned seventy million times before lunch at work. 

Three things I'm thankful for:

1. Emotions. Even if they're all over the place - it's good to feel.

2. Friends to share the journey.

3. This life. 


Wednesday, April 8, 2015

More Wedding Pics.

I had no confidence going into this shoot.
Clint showed me how filthy my lens was about a month ago, and I had intended to send it in for cleaning, but then my dad died.

(Haha, I have a friend who lost her dad a couple years ago, and she says I'm part of the MDD group now. Apparently, I will say MDD - my dad died - over and over again for the next while...)

Anyway, I never got around to getting that lens cleaned, plus I didn't have time to go through pinterest pics of 'before the wedding' photo set ups.

So I prayed the whole way to Bellingham that Sunday morning. That God would somehow work through me and my amateur ways with my dirty equipment and help me capture some good memories.

When I got to the the hotel, I was somewhat dismayed by the small hotel room with only one window in which to work. For most of the pics, I'm standing in a 8" x 12" corner next to the boxes and bags and laptop and garbage can and flowers hoping to get a clear shot at something.

And then when we went outside? THE WIND. That wind almost made it impossible to be outdoors. BUT THE CEREMONY ROOM was too dark for me to get good shots, so outside we stayed.


Plus, you, know. MDD.

Anyway. First set of pics is here.
And this is the last of them.

(Well, I took 1500 pics. Culled it down to 500. And am posting about 20.)

Thank you Jesus that there were 20 good shots. :)

Three Things I'm Thankful For:

1. Young love.
2. Weddings.
3. Family.